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It Happened!

It is amazing to think about this journey through open marriage. As with anything worthwhile in life, there have been ups and downs. There has been growth and change. One thing I particularly enjoy is reading back through some of my original goals to see if/how these have been met. You’ll remember in one of my first posts I wrote about not experiencing orgasm (Interesting side-bar, this is a very common thing many wives write to me about). My first real orgasm happened with a stallion who had flown to meet me at a training event. I began to understand the contexts it took for me to continue experiencing orgasms but I never really thought what lay beyond that initial goal. Not until I met Giovanni and he opened my eyes to the idea of actual, feminine release.

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A Fantasy Cum True

Open marriage comes with many benefits ;). Some are obvious, like fucking other men with the love and support of my husband. Others are peripheral benefits that I have discovered along the way. With the freedom of fully embracing my own sexuality, I have begun to find the things that truly excite my body; things I may never have known about my libido, or at least never acknowledged as experiences to be realistically explored. For instance, open marriage allowed me to indulge a fantasy many women desire; to revisit a past boyfriend and close the chapter, sexually and emotionally. Another peripheral desire I discovered was the experience of fucking a stallion in public. I’m happy to say this is another story Giovanni was able to help me realize during his visit. It happened as all my favorite stories happen, without intention. A seize of the moment. 

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Thoughts on The Feminine Libido

A topic I have wanted to touch upon for a while is that of the feminine libido, or more specifically my libido since every woman is different. You’ll recall when I first began this blog I wrote about a desire to experience orgasm. I had never truly felt an orgasm, let alone squirting, so it became my mission to better understand my own body. That kicked off the mutual research my husband and I shared which I detail in how it all began. After 2+ years I feel now is a perfect time to revisit the subject of orgasm, squirting and libido in general because, well, I am excited to say I have experienced all of these things. Yes. Even squirting 😉 so stay tuned for that upcoming story.

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Views From The Stag: First Foray

My wife gets lots of questions related to my side of our open marriage. To be honest, it looks MUCH different than the stories you read from the vixen perspective. I fully believe this is because men and women look for different things in relationships. Obviously, this is not an ‘allness argument’ and there will be outliers but in general the women I meet tend to want more than I can give. Since we opened I have not really had any long-term relationships. There have been two women in particular who have been fairly significant for good and bad reasons that I can share about. Like my wife, I have changed certain details to protect identities.

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